Monday 25 May 2009

最近生活是比較平靜的



前天周休日,傍晚帶著MP3耳聼機在我家附近散步,眼前天空呈現出一片藍色和橙色的雲海,與悠悠的街燈相映成趣,很美,心情感到滿滿的舒暢,不到十五分鐘這一切就被黑暗龐罩了起來,無常、珍惜,寫照著我最近生活裡的感受。

蠻戲劇化的,這些日子來發生了好多事,由緩慢變繁忙容易,由充實歸平實卻不簡單,有些人就這樣走了,對於生命、生活,對於家人親人友人更有感觸,對家鄉對過去的緬懷更是萌然生起,我花了一些時間,還在調整。。。

有些關懷我的朋友捎來了真摯的關心,我一併致謝,我還好,感恩哦~

知道嗎,如果說我發現我最近幾個月來的改變是什麼?嗯,除了頭髮變白了許多之外,應該,就是變成比以前更感性了,年紀越大,越容易被感動了,真的,連看一些稍爲感動的書籍都會滴個兩滴淚。。。

前幾天上班回家途中,老媽打電話來又重復跟我說一些保重的話,並叫我多喝水,吃一點好吃的,多吃水果,補好身子,老爸是比較不善于表達關心的,但還是叫我駕車小心,要照顧好自己等等,十年如一日,他們都是這樣“囉嗦”著我長大的,如今聼起來是很親切的叮嚀。大把年紀了,扎扎實實邁進另一個年頭,然後我這一天晚上回家開車途中,腦筋不斷著在想事情,想著我這這些年來是怎樣過的。想到中學時的瘋狂,想到大學時的夢想和自由自在,想到當初出來工作時那一份天真又刺激的心情,想到一大堆片段的記憶,聼著收音機的歌,也不知不覺的隨便哼了幾句。

又是一個起點了,很多人事物就將不一樣了,我,打從骨子裡知道,我的責任重了,但卻是缺乏力氣的。前一陣子在聼廣播時聼到有關臺灣出名的六義幫戲劇,裏頭的經典對白:[這年頭,我們還能失去甚麼?]

很有感覺,確實,漸漸的自己發現,開始失去的,比新得到的,要多。所以,我們還能失去甚麼呢?一個親人,一段回憶,一份愛,一股熱情。。。? 不敢再去想,至少目前情況不太敢。

於是乎,我明白我開始念舊,開始質變,開始不捨,開始感性,都是源自此。

我喝著熱熱的牛奶加麥片,心理交雜,卻又沒有感覺,明天還是要繼續幹活,加油吧~

Clarify

I know it's my birthday, but that does not necessarily mean I must "celebrate", "partying" or do anything of sort. People has been asking me the same thing over and over again today, like where will I go celebrate and partying in conjunction with my birthday. Some even "adviced" me to "settle down" since it's "very timely" for me to do so now... . Alas, luckily, these are not friends who really know me well enough.

To this group of people, let me clarify:

(1) I don't really need to "celebrate" my birthday. I'm NOT 18 or 21 anymore
(2) What is there to be so "Happy" on my birthday? To me, it's just another day, working day...blah blah blah...
(3) I don't need to be "Happy" only on my birthday. I want and hope to be happy EVERYDAY if possible
(4) Last but not least. Our birthday actually means "the day when our mom was in severe labour pain, and putting her life at the chopping board, hanging by the thread..." It's a time to remember and show our gratitude to our moms instead, and certainly NOT celebrate or partying!

Anyway, I do REALLY REALLY appreciate all the greetings and well wishes from ALL OF YOU out there. I mean it! You're the best and you've been so special in my life. Cheers!

Friday 22 May 2009

車頂上的貓



很奇怪的貓,
每次都喜歡爬上我車頂睡覺,
可能是很涼快吧,還是有“高高在上”的感覺,我不知道,
害我每次都要把他的腳印和毛洗掉,
總之,這一次是給我捉個正著,
終于拍到你的廬山真面目了!
看他“嚇到”的樣子,
倒是蠻有趣的。 >.<

(拍到他照片之後的幾天,他還是老樣子爬上去睡覺!)

Life goes on

人生的旅途中,起點我們不能選擇,而終點我們不能阻止出現,過程卻是在我們自己的腳下。

我們這一趟的旅途,不必在乎目的地,在乎的,是沿途風景,以及看風景的心情。暮暮朝朝又一載,每個人都是匆匆的行者。人生在世,各有各的生存狀態,各有各的心路歷程,也各有各的價值觀念,這是一個自然定律。

當然,在人生的旅行中也离不开旅伴和朋友。朋友是我們站在窗前欣赏冬日飘零的雪花時手中捧着的一盞熱茶;朋友是我们走在夏日大雨滂沱中時手裏撑着的一把雨傘;朋友是春日來臨時吹開我們心中冬的鬱悶的那一絲春風;朋友是收穫季節裏我們陶醉在秋日私語中的那杯美酒。我珍惜身邊的每位朋友,更疼惜那些曾在我生命刻下難忘記憶的知心朋友。

這些風風雨雨的日子裏,我承認某些事情我的確是錯了,但我絕對沒有惡意,更沒有任何不良心機。很遺憾的,很多事情將從此永遠成爲一個謎,沒有機會了解,也沒有機會解釋,但凡我知道錯的,我一定會去改進,一定。

I offer no excuses, for we all know that Buddhists believe what goes around comes around, and our destiny lies beneath our feet. I'm not perfect, but I've put in my best effort. I'm not always right, but I swear the intention to get it right has always been there. I am only human, and human do make mistake, but I'm not using this as an excuse.

We learn and pick up a little lesson here and there as we travel, and I admit I've learned the hard way this time. It has been a very very painful period/experience for me, and I know I've equally caused as much pain to you. For this, I must apologise to you with all utmost sincerity(sorry).

I'm slowly picking up the pieces of my life lately but I know it's already way too late to turn back the clock now. There are things that will remain unexplained forever. No amount of effort can change the world anymore. Things can never be the same again as the world around me has turned upside down since then. Looking back and regret will only re-open the wound in my heart and starting to bleed again. I also don't possess the power to change one's perception for I believe it has been fixed and carved to the stone for eternity. I just have to accept the reality.

Moving forward, I can only pray and wish that time will heal... . And on my part, I shall strive to do better and fill in the gaps whenever possible for the remaining of my life journey. You shall always be in my prayers~

Thursday 21 May 2009

叮嘱清风 奉上衷心 祝福千串



終于,你還是如願以償可以到那地方去深造了,
我當然替你高興,但坦白說難免會有些不捨,
然而,我知道這條路將對你生命和目標非常有意義,
我會祝福你的,雖然說我在這不能做些其他什麽的了。。。,
多年來看你長大,很欣慰,應該算是我的福報了吧,
你這一趟的離去,將是彼此生命的轉戾點,
可以肯定的,以後你的日子會更美好和充實;
謝謝你以前曾帶來的歡笑,我會懷念一切的,
我將把記憶停留在以前最開心的日子。。。
衷心祝福你,前程錦繡、幸福美滿~

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遙依的遠古,
似曾相識的故事,
生命就在無聲無息的低語中啓程,
走過風、走過雨,
每一個相遇和記憶都是感恩,
每一次回首都是深悟,
每一個個轉都是極點,
加油吧~

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祝福 - 葉倩文

徘徊丛林迎着雨
染湿风中的发端
低诉细雨路遥若困倦
静靠湾湾小草倚清泉
悠悠流泉随路转
偶于山中转数圈
一片软软渐黄落叶
荡向清溪之中早飘远
啊 过去过去 多少次心乱
今天今天 随着云烟渐远
听听鸟语 静望雨丝飘断
悄悄的风 赠我衷心
祝福一串
啊 送你送你 祝福永不断
轻轻地飘 寻觅无边路远
借那鸟语 路上细添温暖
拜托清风 奉上衷心
祝福千串
叮嘱清风 奉上衷心
祝福千串

Wednesday 13 May 2009

再見了,敬愛的三舅!

我的三舅,上個拜五早上(五月八日),
就在越過這斑馬綫時遭到一個飛駛而來的印度人Mat Rempit撞到,

結果,整個人騰空飛起來,落地時頭部直接撞向離開斑馬綫約40尺的路礅(就是多根電燈柱下面黑白部分;斑馬綫就在照片左邊)


腦部受重傷,裂成幾個部分,嚴重内外部出血,手腳骨骼也折斷,
經幾個小時創救后不治身亡。。。

人就這樣走了,大家都很傷心,
突然間又有了很多感觸,想了好多好多東西。

不過,現在我要做的就是為三舅祈禱,
希望他早日離苦得樂往生西方極樂世界,
阿彌陀佛~